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The Song of Lilith

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“The Song of Lilith” by Paul B. Rucker

(written at age 16, with notes added at age 37-39)

Between the ages of 15 and 17 I sought out and discovered a wide range of esoteric spiritual materials– occult and otherwise– during a long-ranging and self-imposed adolescent curriculum to immerse myself in study of major world religions and counterposed ” secret texts.” I led a very active and unsuspected life of contemplation while otherwise fulfilling the role of an intelligent and eccentric but otherwise unnotable high school student. At this time I was reading, for instance, the Old and New Testaments side by side with Madame Blavatsky’s The Secret Doctrine; or extracts from the Zohar and the Talmud alongside Dion Fortune, Oahspe, and the Arabian Nights (Burton translation), Marie Corelli and the Koran. The channelled material known as The Law of One became a secret cornerstone for the house of wisdom I was building.

I remember on a bitterly cold, perfectly still day in January 1984, wandering about at 15 years old, reading aloud mentally line by line of Blavatsky’s The Voice of the Silence, beneath an arctic sky of molten blue, the diamond light of the winter sun at noon gleaming on thick virgin carpets of blue-white Minnesota snow, the voice of the Master in that Himalayan poem a bell-like concord with the frozen purity of the day. We lived near the University at which my my father taught– it was winter break– I wandered alone, myself in the blue and the white and cold still light. Moments like this belong to foreverness.

When I was growing up I used to wonder why I had “chosen” to grow up in such a dull quiet place, since esoteric literature insists we “choose” our life circumstances before birth. Perhaps such lack of external distractions helped me experience an internal purity of images and emotions that let me lay down my inner world simply and well. I doubt it would have been possible in more “stimulating” environments.

So this poem is precious to me not just as a personal retelling of the story of Lilith through the prisms of all the knowledge I was working to integrate at the time, but also because I am now another person; I will never again be the person who wrote this, or who could write this…. The young voice that wrote this seems like someone else, reminding me of something I should never forget.

I did not sit down and write this all in a piece. Often weeks or even months would pass before I would write another section– which always flowed, as though “channeled”. I would simply know it was time to write more. The archaic language seemed right for this telling, also, yet I realized some explanation would be required for various influences if I put this out into the world, so at this late date I have added footnotes and other elaborations.

Prologue

Adam was made from the warp of the day
Lilith was made from the woof of the night
Adam at heart was an angel of day–
Lilith his soul mate took joy in his light.

One light they  were in the great light Primeval
Not yet bestowed with their shadows of clay
Unaware either of good or of evil–
Brought down to Earth on an etheric ray.

Thus was the ending of infinite dark
And the beginning of radiant Day
Now their goal is to remember the Spark
made more than whole
in the essence of Soul
and the Light beyond light beyond dark.
(And thus they will hallow the Day.)

Adam in truth was the warp of the day
Lilith in truth was the woof of the night.
Their work on Earth shall be done as it may;
The end of all roads is in infinite light.

I.  And It Was Good

Eden, the child of Paradise:
This was the Lovers’ home,
Beknelt at the step of the Higher House.
Here they learned each day a new glory of love.
Of self Adam and Lilith had no idea.
Bound to Earth, they rejoiced, and made love to her,
Sharing happiness with all her creatures
Forgetting, for the present, the Heavenly Home.
If there was pain, it was sweet.
If there was suffering, it was good in the end
For their hearts were entirely with God.
Green tender jewel was Eden– its denizens without fear,
arising in the nearness of Jehovih’s[1] Earth-angels,
at their call.
In the first morning, all creatures knew each other’s names.
Blessed they were– they were– they saw each other’s souls
Even those of the silent-giving plants
Even those of the rocks and stones
Even that of the young Earth
And those of the stars
And it was good, quite good.
Adam was happy
Lilith was happy
In their innocence.

They did not know
Lucifer, the Son of the Morning
The Proud Angel
The Fallen One
Was angry and envious of their grace.
Once he was the Herald of the Day
The Bright Shining One to whom great hosts of angels turned,
to hear the clarion-call of God through him.
High as he then was, he was not perfect
Only the Infinite Creator is perfect.
And the Creator’s plans are unfathomed by any angel.
At the behest of Jehovih the Infinite Creator
God[2] created man.
Lucifer spoke out in rage
“Why dost thou imprison thy servants in shells of static clay?
Why torment them so? Bring them back to thee,
if Divine Justice has mercy. If not, then I shall go down amongst them myself, and defy thee!”[3]
Lucifer cast himself down into this world
He understood not the trials of love[4]
Now he suffers though them
He suffers, polarizing to service of self[5], yet unable to escape his own soul.
Proud will be the day when Lucifer is restored to Heaven![6]
But when the Earth was new, and he fresh-jolted
Hatred lay in his heart
Hate of God
Hate he transferred to the former creatures of his pity
He blamed them for his fall
Thus it was that Evil arose
Evil, a backward-seeking force[7]
A misdirected effort.
Lucifer plotted against the first man and the first woman.
Lilith he sought, appealing to the stuff of intuitive night from which she was made–
Lilith he intrigued against, in ways devious and subtle.

[1] From OAHSPE: A New Bible in the Words of Jehovih and His Angel Ambassadors: A Sacred History of  the Dominions of the Higher and Lower Heavens on the Earth, by John B. Newbrough. Channeled material, nineteenth century American. “Jehovih” is said to be man’s name for the one Infinite Creator, omnipresent as is the wind, from whose sounds “Ee–oh–ih,” the name is inspired.

Further note, from The Ra Material (The Law of One, Book One, by Ra, “a humble messenger of the Law of One,” pp. 140-1):

Questioner: “Can you tell me who was responsible for transmitting the book Oahspe?”
Ra: “I am Ra. This was transmitted by one of Confederation social memory complex status, whose idea, as offered to the Council, was to use some of the known physical history of the so-called religions or religious distortions of your cycle in order to veil and partially unveil aspects or primal distortions of the Law of One. All names can be taken to be created for their vibrational characteristics. The information buried within has to do with a deeper understanding of love and light, and the attempts of infinite intelligence through many messengers to teach/learn those entities of your sphere.”

[2] “God” refers to the Logos, or creative intelligence, of our particular universe with its idiosyncrasies and refinements of construction, named in the sense Ra uses the nomen, “Logos”.  In Oahspe, “God”  refers to the tutelary spirit or governing deity (supernal personality, evolved being) of Earth and is a position or title invested but not inherent, rather like the American presidency– except that sublime positive virtue is inherently required, and a term lasts many thousands of years.

[3] Understanding the nature of Evil, particularly as symbolized by the “Great Enemy” figure that belongs to much of Earth’s psychological history, has always presented a challenge to me. Why? In the Islamic  tradition, Iblis, the “Son of Fire”, is essentially God’s Lover, though not in the carnal sense we would take it, and sees humanity as his Rival, therefore enemy, for the love of God. In the Avestan/Zoroastrian tradition, which influenced Marie Corelli (See Note 6) among others, the spirit  of Evil– Angra Mainyu or Ahriman, exists prima facie to counter every good with an opposing evil.  My point of view at sixteen, when I wrote this, was a sense of injustice in the face of authoritarian whim, and of  high spiritual estate that places no worth on the human condition as it is. In other words, incarnation in flesh is only punishment for creatures of spirit– a Gnostic view that redounds on itself to create more errors of perception. This Lucifer starts at the top and wants to stay there, not participating in the greater plan except to want to ruin it.

[4] The idea that our existence– our current evolutionary curriculum– is meant to teach the art, the act, the immersion in love and loving. That light/love and love/light are the primal materials of Beingness         manifested and thus inherent in all that is, came to me in the Ra material; and the specific idea of  “the Love Mysteries” or the soul challenges inherent in specific conditions of life (“experiential catalyst”–Ra) first came to me through Linda Goodman, when I read Love Signs at age 11.

[5] Developing spiritual polarity, which is akin to the charge between positive and negative ions that creates electrical force in the sense that the greater the differential, the stronger the work/force expended, is central to the Ra philosophy of the evolution of beings. Service to others (loosely understood as “good”) is the positive pole; service to self (“evil”) the negative.  The two are ultimately reconciled in higher densities of evolution, according to Ra, but a choice in one direction or another is absolutely central to progress.  The human condition as we know it revolves around  the Choice. A genuinely negative polarization is so absolute it leaves no room for recrimination or doubt, but at sixteen I wondered if even “the Devil” may have doubts. This was no doubt influenced in its turn by the interaction in Tanith Lee’s Delusion’s Master, of Wickedness Incarnate in the form of Azhrarn, the Prince of Demons, who has fallen in love with Dunizel (“Soul-of-the-Moon”), a girl who represents a human Christos, and who awakens in him a doubt of his role as Wickedness. Their union at the end of this story in a mystical yab-yum allegorizes (for me) the union of  polarities.

[6] Marie Corelli, a hugely successful Victorian author, wrote several novels that contained mystic Christian themata, in such a form that many believe she was at least a minor initiate of an esoteric metaphysical order. Her most popular novel ever, one that even Queen Victoria kept at her  bedside, was The Sorrows of Satan, in which Satan, aka “Lucio Rimanez” (from Ahriman) is condemned by God to tempt humanity eternally and to be forever barred from Heaven, unless a soul refuses him to his face, in which case he may gain one hour in Paradise. This of course happens when the viewpoint character, a man who has been given every worldly glory by Rimanez, refuses  him in a highly theatrical renunciation scene aboard a cruise ship that heads, among other places, on a scenic tour of Hell. The Devil is condemned to play his role until man himself redeems himself… my take on this idea was not unlike C. S. Lewis’ writing that Hell is a state of mind and soul, and thus (to my understanding) requires an utter change of heart, and long passages of trial and learning (working out karma) to transmute and redeem. Yet that is the ultimate goal, however long it may be  in human standards of time (“The end of all roads is in infinite light.”)

[7] From Dion Fortune’s Cosmic Doctrine, another work channeled from the Inner Planes. In this material  “evil” as a cosmic principle is described as anti-evolutionary or backward-directed Force, whose ultimate end is in entropy and dissolution in the “Great Unmanifest.”

II.  The Cave

Bright and gay passed the days of the first human couple
Never did idleness strike their hearts,
For there was much to do on this young Earth.
One day, as Lilith was walking
Unhurried, with perfect ease
Down slopes and valleys fairer than Gilead,
She discovered a cave, covered with moss.
No birds sang, no beast played near it.
It was still.
Lilith walked to the mouth of the cave
And entered
Unafraid as any child
Inside it was dark and warm as the womb she had never been born of–
Until now.
This mortal woman, this spirit-in-flesh
Who had never been carried by fleshly mother
Came to know a calm; a peace
Not of Heaven but of Earth.
She became attached to this earth
As never before
And greater love for the planet overwhelmed her.
She wept softly for joy of it
And proudly left the mother made of soil[1]
Who was now her mother.
Indeed, all nature was now her mother.
Lilith mentioned the cave to Adam
He did not understand
She did not mention it again
But kept the secret for her secret Woman-self.

[1] In Hebrew the name for Earth is Adamah, from which “Adam” is derived. “Em Adamah” means Mother Earth.


III.  Empyrean

Days there were when Lilith forgot the cave
Or rather, chose not to remember.
She would leave behind the feminine Night
And enter the arms of radiant Day
Enter the life of Adam.
She would come to him in the morning
To greet him
Her man, her god:
Her Adam
Pure yet they were and deep in love.
And they would rejoin the Dance Celestial[1]
When the flesh would become like spirit
And things of the Earth draw near the Sun.
Body to Body, Spirit to Spirit
Soul to Soul
One, yet Two, and Whole
Soul Mates
Twin Flames[2]
Fire dancing on the altar of God.
Thus it was
Empyrean.[3]
But the sun sets
And light fades
And the pallid moon lays all things to rest.
The two halves come apart again
Adam–
Lilith–
Separate entities.
Free hearts, free minds,
Not always agreeing
Not always friends
Not always together
But still very much in love.
Perhaps this
Is the true meaning
Of Empyrean.

[1] The Dance Celestial, or the “Great Dance” appears in diverse places in world mythology– for instance, in Krishna’s mystic dance with his gopis (cowherdesses), wherein he dances with each and every one  simultaneously (God as Divine Lover appears to each soul simultaneously)– and the dance is replicated in many forms– ring dances, the Spiral Dance, etc. as an experience and token of unity in harmony of the Creation. Here I was no doubt thinking of the splendid epiphany of the Great Dance as depicted by C. S. Lewis in Perelandra, at the resolution of the story, where Tor and Tinidril, the green-skinned Adam and Eve of Perelandra (Venus, in “Old Solar”– the language of the eldila or angels), who have overcome the temptation of Original Sin, join all creatures of their world and its heavens in a holy dance of movement in grace.

[2] Being more than twice the age I was when I wrote or channeled this work, I feel compelled to say that I have acquired considerable doubts about the doctrine of “Twin Souls”– an idea prevalent in some  esoteric circles and writings, including those of Marie Corelli and Linda Goodman, which is probably where I picked it up. It is, after all, just the kind of thing to appeal to a passionately romantic (but still emotionally innocent) adolescent sensibility.

In essence, the notion is that each and every soul or sentience has its “Twin Soul” or “Twin Flame”– its “other half” in a literal sense, without which it is incomplete. The reunion of Twin Souls after many incarnations of karmic testing, transmutation and purification is supposed to be much of the point of enduring the hardships and lessons of incarnation, in this worldview. My personal experience so far, in this lifetime, inclines me away from the notion of a “one and only” and more toward the idea of “soul families.” I suspect that the idea of “Twin Souls” does not even apply to individual personalities as we experience them, but possibly to our Higher Selves or Oversouls. If  you accept the idea that all of our incarnations in time and space are interconnected in the beingness of our own Higher Self, then bringing all of these seemingly separate pieces into unity betokens a form of realization and a higher order of unitive consciousness than we are able to apprehend. in a single incarnation. The myth of the Goddess Isis retrieving the pieces of her husband, Osiris, in order to restore him to wholeness and life, may have some significance to this  idea as well.

[3] “Empyrean” refers to “the Highest Heaven”, wherein is situated the “Throne of God” in classical  Christian texts, most vividly in the Paradiso of Dante’s Divina Comedia, wherein the structure of  the Heavens is as thoroughly described as is Hell in the Inferno.

IV.  The Serpent Waits

It was such a time, however
When the cord of love strained tightly
Adam took himself to a high mountain mantled in sun
Where all the beasts would come
Unafraid
Chattering in their many voices
Adam had no voice
He and Lilith had needed none
But now he struggled
Forced his clay to respond.
And it came
A low groan
Silent almost as soon as it began
Silent all day
But there
Awaiting rebirth.

Lilith took herself
To visit the cave.
And wash clean of Day wounds in Night water.
No animals followed her.
At the mouth of the cave she heard a rustle
Saw it
The Serpent
Wrought of fire and ice
Eyes aglitter like stars
Its every move a sweet outer harmony
Sibilant it spoke:
“Whither go, thou daughter of Earth?
Sweet is thy face
And thy body is fair–
Thy Chosen must rejoice in thee!”

Lilith answered it in the way of mind
Simply,
“I go here.” And then
“How comest thou by speech?
I would believe thee mute
If mine ears did not gainsay me.”

The Serpent rose and swayed
A glorious thing
Eyes sad, joyous melodies
“I have taken the things of this world
For mine own
And in so doing
I have learned
A power
Many powers
Such as I have never known
Until the moment I was bold enough to take them!”

Lilith was awed.
He spoke again
“If I can rise so high
By mine own strength
How much higher may thee rise?
Thou, a human
With human body
Human mind
Human potential!
I see thy destiny, O Beautiful One
I see thee arrayed in glorious raiment
In splendor not equalled in Heaven
I see thee a Queen, and mother of men,
Of legions and multitudes
Who shall rule this Earth.
As high as I am
Thou shalt rise higher
A thousand-fold
A million-fold!”

Lilith looked down at her body.
Seeing her indecision, the Serpent said
“Think how happy the Lord, thy God would be
To know his younger brother and sister
Were so mighty.
Is that not why thou wert placed on this Earth?
To regain the glory of Heaven by thine efforts?
Think upon it.”

With this
It coiled away.
Lilith looked at it
For all its power it still crawled on the ground.

V.  The  Other World

From that moment
A poison entered Lilith’s heart
The Serpent’s words lingered
She began to question herself.
Eden seemed no longer home
Adam remained on his mountain
Where the animals came to him.
No animals came to Lilith
She was alone
All alone
For days and days
Weeks
Alone
And always thinking of the words of the Serpent
And wondering.
His poison was true
And its taste was sweet
In the time that followed
Lilith came to know
Herself
and she liked not all that she saw:
Poisoned, tempted, impure
Unworthy….
To Adam she went and announced,
“For a time I shall go.
I shall seek
My own way.
And I shall come back to you
Cleansed of my shadow.”
Adam made no sound
Acknowledged her not
He was still angry that she would not assume the recumbent posture he demanded in their love-making.[1]
Seeing he was so, Lilith left
Returning again to her cave
Carrying fruits for sustenance.
The cave became a
Door
a gate
It led into the folds of the planet
On she walked
Through odd phantasmia
And bewildering illusion-shows
Time hung askew–
And always the offer sounded in her ear
–Thou needest not suffer so
–I see thee Queen of the Earth
–As high as I am, thou shalt rise higer
–Follow me….

At length Lilith came to the end of the passage.
All her fruit gone
The Serpent’s voice with her
There was only a pool
A pool of clear water, unmolested, undisturbed
Lilith looked within, but saw not her reflection
Rather a vision of angels
A glittering es’enaur[2] came before her
And silently showed her
Her choice.
“I am split,” she cried.
“Shall I be a Queen of Earth or a slave of Heaven?”
She agonized
The seraph showed her Adam
“Nay…” she said.  “For him be the power of Earth and the Kingdom of Heaven, and for his sake I shall go alone into that darkness I see before him.”
She reached out to the Shining One
Embracing the darkness
Within her.

[1] In the Talmudic story of Adam and Lilith, her refusal to lie beneath him during sex is said to have been the moment when she separated from him, “flying into the air.”

[2] “Es’enaur” derives from OAHSPE and means “heavenly musician.”

VI.  Adam Falls

Adam, the man
Lord of Earth
Received power from above and support from below
All unknowing–
An innocent.
Rather like a child he was
Swayed easily to look out at himself
Instead of in, at all else.
Lilith knew this
She gave him strength as she had taken it
Save this time he gave none back.
He could not, for he saw himself forsaken and flesh-lonely
Each day he sealed himself a little more from the mate of his spirit
Building a wall of vain self to separate
soul from soul
from Soul.
Lilith knew this also
But she did not grieve nor storm
No
Not Lilith
By sacrificing herself entirely
She had gained new eyes
And saw how precious was Jehovih’s greatest gift–
Free will.
And how great Love is
when one’s will is freely given to another.[1]
Because she loved him
She loosed him
And he forgot her
Coming gradually to dissemble her image away from his heart
Locking her away in his soul
And he became barren and forlorn.

In the form of two devas[2] the Divine visited him
One Feminine, whose countenance was Love
One Masculine, whose face was Wisdom
In one voice they spoke
And asked him
His heart’s desire
Before he thought he answered,
“A woman.”
And they questioned him no further.
The radiant She whose face awed Beauty
and rendered dumb sweet harmony
Touched him from one side.
The glittering He whose mantle was Light
and whose eyes were Heaven’s deepness
Came upon him from the other.
And from the stuff of his body
And the passion of his heart
The Divine created
her–
His woman.
“What is her name?” he asked.
“Her name
for the present
is Eve,”
answered They.
“Now, Adam
Have thee thy heart’s desire?
Art thou happy?”

Clasping his woman to him,
The man said,
“I am happy.”
At that, the devas left Adam
And his second bride
Alone.

[1] Positive polarity inheres in part by putting one’s will to serve other than oneself, to radiate love toward the Creation and to specific beings within it. “Not my will but Thine be done.” Not to be suborned or enslaved, but an instrument of unity.

[2] In Sanskrit, deva means “god.” The word is also used to describe a kind of planetary angel that oversees the  activities of smaller intelligences (faeries) within ecosystems and biospheres.

VII.  Confrontation

Lucifer, angered that Lilith turned from him
Worked well with Adam
And his woman Eve
And with the child that was born to them
Eve’s child
Adam’s child–
The child Lilith never bore.
Adam was happy
With wife and son
And the pleasures of the Earth.
But once in a stretch of days
He would become sullen and silent
No draught or morsel would part his lips
No touch of skin arouse him.
And Eve would curse, intuitively knowing
Lilith held his heart.
And she came to hate Lilith, whom she had never seen
Because she had such power over her man.

Lucifer was glad
And Eve’s hate became his nectar
From the roiling darkness now his home
(Which he perceived as light, and peopled with grim parodies of angels to serve him)
Lucifer, King of Hell, looked across the trefoil fields of time[1]
And rejoiced
For he saw futures of interminable strife
Where hatred blanketed the souls of all beings
And fear of each other rendered them weak.
“So shall all things of the Infinite Creator be brought down before me!”
he cried.
And his cry was a shout of triumph to his ears
But it was a scream of torment to the angels in Heaven.

A cycle of seasons passed
And Eve again became pregnant.
That spring all things gave forth new life
Grass-shoots sprouted beneath the slender willow
Tree-branches danced in their new kirtle of green
Sunlight warmed the newborns of the world.
Three animals came to the humans, and were given names:
Sun-on-Wind, they called the cheetah,
Shadow-of-Moon, the raven,
and Wending-Wave, the dolphin.
At water’s edge, at sunset
They would watch the sun go down
amid indigo clouds
in a cauldron of amber blood.
Then the stars would show themselves
White and pure and far away.

One night Eve looked away from her child
And Lilith appeared to him
Gleaming like a spirit
Or a deva
Her trail a cloak of light.
“Adam!” she called, and he came
In awe of her beauty
and purity.
He could see the question in his son’s eyes:
Is this a star come to Earth?
–he himself wondered.
“Come with me,” said Lilith. “As I said long ago, when I promised to return.”
Adam said nothing, ashamed that he had forgotten.
Atlast he said, “I have another now.”
And full of sorrow turned away to join his wife inside their home.
The boy touched Lilith
Eyes wide
He had never seen such beauty.
She gave him her hand
And he took it
Stepping nearer
Half-enshrouded already by her light.

Eve saw them
“Cain!” she cried, naming him.

Lilith drew away
Cain ran to his mother
And she screeched, “Begone,
Foul Spirit!
Trouble my own no more!”
“Little one,”
said Lilith
Her eyes deep and sad
“Will you come with me?”
But Eve held him fast
And he dared not leave her embrace.
“So be it,” said Lilith
A tear fell from her cheek
And lost itself in the ground.
“Go!” cried Eve
And Lilith went
Never again did they see her.
In time, hoped Eve,
Cain would forget
But he did not
And years later when he rose in anger
And slew his then-unborn brother
Perhaps he was remembering
What was lost.

[1] This refers to the idea put forward in The Law of One and in the physics of Dewey Larson, that time as well as space has three dimensions and functions accordingly with its own complex interrelationship of physical laws. Because we experience time as seemingly linear while moving about in the three dimensions of space/time, it is difficult to grasp a contra-posed experience of time. But time/space is where much work/activity that we call metaphysical takes place, including the inner plane work that constitutes the processing of “incarnational catalyst.”

VIII.   Seed of Sorrow

The song of Heaven
Now wove new themes
Of power and goodness and love.
And they were perfectly mirrored
in the Shadows arising
From the squalor of Hell.
The Song of Life was sung
And all Creation was the Singer.
Far away, by other stars
Life arose on other worlds
Nourished by their light and warmth.
And these new things joined the Song.
From star to star in infinite space-time
The link of great harmony filled the etherean heavens[1]
Souls shadowed in clay rose blind in the light
And shed their bodies like husks,
Becoming all Eyes
Becoming like gods
Becoming all.
But time-space is naught when held beside the Infinite
And it was still morning
In the life of Earth.

Eve’s sons grew
And yet again she was pregnant
Now with a daughter, she sensed.
She loved her sons
And wished all for them
Adam taught them to ride and swim and fly with the animals.
Eve taught them what she had learned of the properties of Earth–
The meaning and use of each plant, each herb,
Each seed.
Lucifer knew her heart well and saw she looked no further than mortal life.
He caused to grow in Eden
A shining tree
The like of which had never been before conceived.
He put himself into this tree
And filled its essence with all the knowledge that he possessed
And God allowed it.
Eve approached the tree one day while gathering food
And stopped
marvelling at its great beauty.
The Serpent appeared
And spoke to her
In a voice so sweet she forgot herself
And mutely stared as it coiled in the shining branches.
“I have waited long for thee, fair one–
This tree was grown for thee alone
Come eat of its fruit.”

She did not move.
“Asssuage thy hunger and thy thirst,” hissed the Serpent.
Still she moved not.
“This tree is full of power,” said the Serpent.
“And its fruits are knowledge. Eat and know thyself
And the miracles within thy power!”

She stayed, though weakened
“For thy children’s sake– eat!
Let them know all this world can give them!”

She ate
Biting deep into the fruit, tasting the pit bitter as woe.
“Bring this to thy husband,” laughed the Serpent.
And she did.
And they were filled with Lucifer’s knowledge
and the syrup of his hate
They saw each other
And hated
Drawing away, and cloaking their bodies
that the other may not see them.
Full of anger, Eve rushed to destroy the tree
But it was gone.
Cursing, moaning, she remained all night.
In morning she returned
Adam was sad
“We are to leave Eden,” he said. “By the command of the Lord God,
in the name of Jehovih.”
Eve could not speak then.

Nor when the deva led them out into the barren world
Saying,
“Nevermore shall you enter Eden again, for you have taken the first step away. It is now thy task to make good all the rest of Earth. Perhaps you shall found a new Eden– in time.”
It was not until many days later
After much travel and heartache
That Eve found her voice
And railed aloud, cursing man and angel
and God alike
And cursing Lilith, whom she saw as the fount of her grief.
Many years later they tamed the land
But Eve never forgave,
And passed her memories through all that came behind her–
The entire tribe of Man
Which she knew would someday rule the world.

[1] OAHSPE distinguishes between “terrestrial heavens”– meaning the Inner Planes and Devachanic levels  that are connected with particular planetary spheres and which are home to many kinds of sentient  life, including those angels and spirits whose work is with that sphere– and the “etherean heavens”– akin to what C. S. Lewis calls “Deep Heaven”– the fields and territory of infinite space or  “Etherea,” so-called. It is in the fields of space that major spirits move and dwell– their home, as planetary spheres and their subtle planes are home to whatever life and sentience may be suited for  them.

IX.  Exemplar

While Eve accepted the gift of Lucifer
And also, unknowingly, the cycle of flesh
Lilith made her home in the ether
And voyaged from star to star in the etherean sea
Lilith gave up the toils of Earth
In favor of the service of Heaven.
Her soul is dedicated to all children of the Infinite Creator
But most especially those in her birthing-place, Earth
Where Eve’s children have created a great shadow[1]
That rises against her, and against them
And time and time she must battle it
That the shadow may be transformed to light.
The struggle is great and wearying, for the shadow also bears
the name of Lilith–
But it is the soul of death
The death of the spirit.
It fights against Union
And demands Chaos.[2]
And it is a vampire,
With hunger unsatiable
And lust unfathomed
And Eve’s children are its food.
Lucifer has taken the shadow of Lilith to wife
Thinking he has won her at last
Never seeing the true Lilith
Who by now is harvested far beyond him
And invisible to his density.[3]

Lilith weeps
Knowing the latent power of humanity
Is like a great mirror projecting all the best and all the worst in themselves,
She wants them to see what is good
And to know themselves for what they are:
Creator, and Created
In One.

[1] In magickal terms, this is called an egregore, and it means a thoughtform: an inner planes/imaginal creation that has achieved independent life and usually volition. To a certain extent it can be said that all  personalities generated by human culture as containers for the numinous and the transpersonal (deities and archetypal expressions) are egregores whose primary purpose is to embody an  intermediating state between human consciousness and the unknowable, supernal Divine. Gods and demons alike rely on sustained faith for the continuation of the egregore. Negative egregores are vampiric in nature and feed on negative emanations of various sorts– the more sophisticated the egregore, the more subtle the food. Negative spirits of coarse organization feed on basic emanations of fear, anger, sorrow– those of intricate and long-lasting composition require (and create conditions to generate) more sophisticated emanations of woe. “We have nothing to fear but fear itself.”

[2] Mystic union with the Creator/Creation in all things, the goal of the positive polarity. Negativity gains spiritual valence through separation and control. Just as the word “symbol” means “to put together,” the word diabol as in “diabolic”, demonic– means “to throw apart.”

[3] This concept alludes not only to the concept of harvest as a gathering of those beings who have achieved a certain level of maturity in spiritual polarity and thus can be “harvested” to a new and more intense   density of experience and development, but also to the idea that higher densities are invisible to the lower. (See The Law of One and related materials.)

X.  Lilith’s Farewell

I forgive you, Adam
And you also, Eve
And all your children in their innocence.
When you face the demons of your own making
and call them mine
Be not harsh on my memory
For I cared
And I tried.

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